Day Two of Radiation – Aug 13

After a night of repeated, sleep-disrupting hot flashes, my second morning of radiation treatment began. I felt a level of contentment and peace of mind as I headed out to the Durham VA Oncology department. I now had some knowledge of what to expect, which provided a greater level of calmness. Angel Mary drove me to the appointment.

I had a couple of goals and questions for the staff. I wanted to obtain a screenshot of my radiation process. I wanted a consultation with a Nutritionist for dietary suggestions for inflammation and cell repair following radiation damage. And, I wanted a consultation with Physiotherapy for muscle exercises to strengthen pelvic floor control.

Following my treatment, I stopped at the coffee kiosk at the VA. When attempting to pay for a coffee and a poppy seed cake slice, I was told it had been paid for already. I was stunned. I ask who had paid for it as no one was close by. The young lady at the counter said that lady paid for it, as she pointed to a woman with her back to me overlooking a laptop on the counter nearby. I turned back to the barista and asked, why would she pay for this. She answered, an act of kindness. Again, I was stunned.

There have been multiple times in my life when I have given a random act of kindness at a Tim Horton’s drive-thru or a toll booth. I know the good feeling from paying it forward for no reason other than a good life experience.

This was the first time I had been the recipient of a random act of kindness. As I said to the staff and the wonderful lady benefactor, you are making me leak. I was so shocked and emotional, that I had to sit down to regain my composure.

Coincidence? On the way to the VA, I said out loud, that it seems like some people get some financial benefit from their cancer, mostly illegally. I was wondering if there existed some financial aid for seniors or veterans surviving cancer treatment. And, boom! Somebody, out of nowhere pays for my coffee. Was it a financial reward? Was it a reminder that no matter what happens to you, remember to stop and pay it forward? So many possible lessons and exams combined into one experience.

While contemplating that event, on the way home, another impactful experience manifested before my eyes. Nearby Hyco Lake is known for its Great Blue Heron population and boisterous rookeries. Seagulls have also been seen when the winds blow hard on the N. Carolina coast and the birds head for calmer air. So today, when I noticed a white bird on the way home to the lake, I initially imagined a white Seagull. As I looked closer, I notice it was too large for a Seagull. As I came alongside, it stretched its neck slightly to show the well-known image of a heron in flight, neck tucked in close in the perfect backward S, and its wide wings pushing it forward. It was an incredible sight.

I have never seen a white Heron and was sure it was rare. When I Google-searched I discovered that it is indeed rare to see a white Heron and I also learned of a native message associated with a personal visit by a white Heron.

It is said, this special creature just wants to remind you to follow your unique path without looking back.

Again, it made me leak.

Change Your Habits to Change Your World

When you find yourself, dragging yourself, kicking and screaming in the direction of a goal you know damn well is good for you, get excited, you are breaking an old habit that blocks your road to happiness. Focus on the glow of how the better results feel and push through. The new habit will prevail with less pain of discipline.

Why do I struggle is, as always, the wrong question. Like, why do bad things happen to good people? The question should always be what am I going to do about it? Always go to where people are helping because there you will find hope.

Lettuce Escape

December has been extra warm, 30 degrees above normal. The lettuce from the garden that went to seed has taken sprout in the grass outside the garden plot. Made me laugh to think that the lettuce made a decision to travel. Kinda like they got together and said, “Lettuce escape”. Bahaha!\

September 2015

Hyco Lake has become my refuge of peace. It represents nearly all the things I have always wanted in the perfect retirement get away.

Here are some shots from the last weekend including a beautiful butterfly that kept me company while I changed the air conditioner on the top of the RV. I had to use a heavy rope to pull the A/C to the top, while carefully pulling the rope with the truck. MacGyver would be proud. Moved 300 lbs 15 feet up all by myself.

Summer Hummer

I just love taking pictures. I am taking a National Geographic photography course. Here are a couple of things I have learned about nature photography. BE PATIENT, number one. Use auto film speed, get as much depth of field as necessary, use a tripod, even if you think you are steady handed.

Anyway. Here is a Humming bird that guards the Hummingbird feeder hung in a nearby tree. I have never seen a Hummingbird sitting still, yet this guy sits above the feeder for hours. As soon as another Hummer comes down to drink, he chases them away, like it is his own. I have learned that Hummingbirds normally do not stay in one area, but migrate north and south with the seasons. I read that they remember where feeders are for them and that they feed on sugar water only enough to catch insects. Very interesting bird. A lot of people are totally addicted to them and their care.  They are very cute. The male has a bright red neck when he raises his head. It is yellow normally. The females are even smaller.

Cow Killer Wasp

Wow! Just Wow! So I look down and see this in the grass and think, how unusual, think I will try to capture it. Then sense grabbed my arm and said, hmmm… might want to ask Mr. Google about that before doing that. So I take a pic and ask Mr. Google. Holy Crap, it is dangerous as hell. Eastern Velvet Ant, which is not an ant, but a solitary wasp, whose sting can kill a cow.